{"id":230,"date":"2008-10-06T19:56:02","date_gmt":"2008-10-06T19:56:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/?p=230"},"modified":"2008-10-06T19:56:02","modified_gmt":"2008-10-06T19:56:02","slug":"the-beginning-of-sadness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/2008\/10\/06\/the-beginning-of-sadness\/","title":{"rendered":"The beginning of sadness"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>This excellent comment on growing up by Billy Collins:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>On Turning Ten<br id=\"zs3l0\" \/><br id=\"zs3l1\" \/>The whole idea of it makes me feel<br id=\"zs3l2\" \/>like I&#8217;m coming down with something,<br id=\"zs3l3\" \/>something worse than any stomach ache<br id=\"zs3l4\" \/>or the headaches I get from reading in bad light-<br id=\"zs3l5\" \/>a kind of measles of the spirit,<br id=\"zs3l6\" \/>and mumps of the psyche,<br id=\"zs3l7\" \/>a disfiguring chicken pox of the soul.<br id=\"zs3l8\" \/><br id=\"zs3l9\" \/>You tell me it is too early to be looking back,<br id=\"zs3l10\" \/>but that is because you have forgotten<br id=\"zs3l11\" \/>the perfect simplicity of being one<br id=\"zs3l12\" \/>and the beautiful complexity introduced by two.<br id=\"zs3l13\" \/>But I can lie on my bead and remember every digit.<br id=\"zs3l14\" \/>At four I was an Arabian wizard.<br id=\"zs3l15\" \/>I could make myself invisible<br id=\"zs3l16\" \/>by drinking a glass of milk in a certain way.<br id=\"zs3l17\" \/>At seven I was a soldier, at nine a prince.<br id=\"zs3l18\" \/><br id=\"zs3l19\" \/>But now I am mostly at the window<br id=\"zs3l20\" \/>watching the late afternoon light.<br id=\"fmmi\" \/>Back then it never fell so solemnly<br id=\"fmmi0\" \/>against the side of my tree house,<br id=\"fmmi1\" \/>and my bicycle never leaned against the garage<br id=\"fmmi2\" \/>as it does today,<br id=\"fmmi3\" \/>all the dark blue speed drained out of it.<br id=\"fmmi4\" \/><br id=\"fmmi5\" \/>This is the beginning of sadness, I say to myself,<br id=\"yaap\" \/>as I walk through the universe in my sneakers.<br id=\"yaap0\" \/>It is time to say good-bye to my imaginary friends,<br id=\"yaap1\" \/>time to turn the first big number.<br id=\"yaap2\" \/><br id=\"yaap3\" \/>It seems only yesterday I used to believe<br id=\"yaap4\" \/>there was nothing under my skin but light.<br id=\"yaap5\" \/>If you cut me I would shine.<br id=\"yaap6\" \/>But now when I fall upon the sidewalks of life,<br id=\"yaap7\" \/>I skin my knees, I bleed.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This excellent comment on growing up by Billy Collins: On Turning TenThe whole idea of it makes me feellike I&#8217;m coming down with something,something worse than any stomach acheor the headaches I get from reading in bad light-a kind of measles of the spirit,and mumps of the psyche,a disfiguring chicken pox of the soul.You tell &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/2008\/10\/06\/the-beginning-of-sadness\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;The beginning of sadness&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[34],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-230","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/230","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=230"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/230\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":231,"href":"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/230\/revisions\/231"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=230"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=230"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/moscowcoffeereview.com\/carpecakem\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=230"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}